Ch 1: We Hate Reita Part 3

A/n: The J-man's story is really quite difficult, putting me back 3 days...
I do not guarantee that any of this will make sense, i was half asleep when i wrote it...

Alright time for Ch.1 We Hate Reita part 3

!WARNING! MAJOR OOCs (OUT OF CHARACTER) MORE OOCs IN THIS PART THEN IN PARTS 1&2! THAT MEANS PEOPLE ARE GONNA BE DOING THINGS THEY NEVER DO IN REAL LIFE, JUMPING OFF OF BRIGES, DANCING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET WHILE ITS RAINING, YOU NAME IT... ITS GONNA HAPPEN.THIS IS A FANFIC, WHERE ANYTHING CRAZY HAPPENS

+ THIS CHAPPIES GONNA HAVE ALOT OF FLASHBACKS MAYBE EVEN SOME PG-13. BE MENTALLY PREPARED FOR IT. (;

As Joan closed the door, and leaned against it. Holding the letter in her hands now, Joan could have sworn she could smell Reita's cologne on it. The cologne she bought for him one Christmas.

*Flashback (The morning before Christmas Eve)*

"OMG, what is that smell, what's on fire?" Helen yelled rushing out of her room when the fire alarm went off, only to find Joan covered in flower , and holding what she assumed was a the charred remains of a cake.

"Frosting covers everything, right?" Joan said with a nervous laugh.

"Hey, didn't I tell you I would help you with this." Helen asked, as she took the "cake" and tossed it into the trash.

"Yeah, but I wanna do this myself, it is my boyfriend." Joan as she sat down.

"Hmm... well maybe you could knit him a scarf or something, I'm pretty sure Diana knows how to knit." Helen suggested as she started to clean up the flower "And don't worry about the mess I'll clean it, I know how important this is for you. So get going!" Helen yelled

~~~~

"Okay, then the second needle goes into the loop you just made, there, you just keep doing that back and forth between the two needles until its the length you want it." Diana explained as she showed Joan the steps to knit a scarf.

"Hey I think I got this." Joan replied happily at how well she was doing.

"Okay I need to go down to the 7/11, Connie's been filling in for me for the past week and it's my time to return the favor. Call me if there’s anything wrong." Diana said as she walked out of the room.

Hmm this is pretty easy, Joan thought as she continued knitting the purple scarf.

~an few hours later

"Hello, welcome to 7/11 can I help yo- Joan?" Diana said as she saw Joan rush into the store.

"Yes, help Joan. I kept doing it like you said, but now its all narrow in the middle but its wide at this end. It looks so ugly." Joan cried.

"Well erm... no it’s not that bad... Here let me see if I can fix it" Diana offered as she tried to take the needles from Joan.

"No wait, I wanna do this on my own, just tell me what to do." Joan said yanking th poor excuse for a scarf away.

"Well there’s nothing really. Best if you start over." Diana replied as looking at the scarf again.

"But it took me so all afternoon to do this and I have to give it to Reita tomorrow. I haven’t seen him in months and I only get one day with him before he has to go back to Japan. I want everything to be special." Joan cried.

"It's okay Joan, personally I think it looks fine, just give it to him. If he really cares about you, he would love anything you give him." Diana said reassuringly.

"GAHHHHH!" Joan cried in frustration and ran outside, but not before grabbing a bag of Munchies.

"Hey! It might be the holidays, but you still gotta pay for that!” Diana yelled after Joan but it was futile.

~~
That night at the TASF apartment, Joan was sitting on the living room floor staring at her pitiful scarf. What a pathetic excuse for a girlfriend am I, Joan thought.

"Joan's been moping around the apartment since this afternoon." Sophia said awkwardly to the rest of TASF who were all hiding in Helen, Kimberly, Jessie and Sophia's room. Too scared to face Joan's wrath.

"Hey Jessie, try to get Joan to go with us to the mall" Diana suggested.

One by one, all of TASF came out into the living room.

"Hey Joan, you wanna come with us to the Mall? I heard from a friend, who heard from a friend, who heard from some dude in an alley that there gonna be giving out free cookies at midnight." Jessie said trying to cheer the obviously depressed Joan up.

"I don't know." Joan replied as she picked up the end of the scarf, only to let it fall to the ground.

"Hey I forgot, they would also be giving out free pretzels." Jessie added, knowing what the word pretzels meant to Joan.

"Really, well no point in letting them go to waste, let’s go!" Joan replied with a small smile.

~~

As she wondered through the department stores which were almost empty since everyone was out in line for free cookies.( TASF had already gotten their cookies/pretzels, but went back for seconds, thirds, fourths who cares...its free)

Taking Julie's advice, Joan wondered around the department store to see if there was anything she could get Reita, to make her present look less pitiful. As she walked into the perfume department, she couldn't take the overwhelming aroma's. But as she walked away, a certain smell caught her attention. She wandered around until she found an odd looking bottle with the title Unforgettable (a/n: Yes I now what your all thinking... WTF...a cologne named unforgettable!!! What are you think diana!.... * Smacks my forehead with disappointment.)

The smell from the certain cologne was different. It was crisp, and refreshing.

"Hmmm I wonder if Reita would like this. Is it alright for a girl to buy cologne for a guy? Wait what am I say I'm the one talking out loud to myself. GAHH! I'm so weird" Joan said as he shook her head and decided to put the bottle back on the shelf, but then a hand grabbed it before Joan let it go.

"Didn't I always tell you I like it when you're weird." said the stranger against Joan's ear.

That voice, so familiar it, could it be ...Reita? Joan thought, but she was to scared to turn around. She didn't want to be disappointed if it wasn't him and she was just getting high of the perfumes.

"Well aren't you gonna turn around? Haven't you missed me?" The voice continued, it was soft, yet seductive at the same time. Just like Reita's... Joan thought

"I'm afraid." Joan replied weakly, still refusing to turn around. She missed Reita, it had been three months since she'd seen him. And even if this was an hallucination, Joan wanted to spend it with Reita for all it was worth. Even if it wasn't real.

"Afriad? Of what?" Reita asked.

"That if I turn around right now, you'd be gone. You, this whole conversation, would be a fake, an hallucination." Joan replied.

"Oh, so you're questioning my existents? Are you saying I'm not real? ...Well if this is all just you acting crazy, then maybe I should do something totally insane then." Reita said with a chuckle.

"Wha-"Joan began but Reita's hand let go of the cologne bottle and pulled Joan into him for a kiss. (a/n: WTF RIGHT? your face must be O.o)

This kiss. It's got to be Reita, Joan thought as she opened her eyes.

"Well was that real enough for you." Reita asked when he pulled back with a smirk on his face.

"AHHHH! Reita, it's really you." Joan cried as she jumped into his arms, almost knocking him over.

"Yeah, I came back early, I couldn't leave my girl alone on Christmas. "Reita said laughing as he hugged Joan back.

"Wait how did you know I was here?" Joan said as she suddenly pulled back.

"I was walking to your apartment, when I overheard some guy in an alley talking about free cookies and pretzels at the mall... I thought Joan's gotta be there" Reita said with a smile.

~~

"Hey did you guy try the white macadamia nut cookies? They're the best!" Kimberly raved as she skipped ahead of the rest of TASF.

"Guys, we still need to find Joan, you should have seen how sad she looked when her scarf turn out wrong." Diana reminded them.

"Maybe she's at the-" Connie started.

"Hey guys look." Helen cried pointing frantically towards the perfume department.

TASF looked and saw Joan and surprisingly Reita at the register buy some sort of cologne that came in it's own designer bag.

"Stop gawking you guys, you look like a bunch of weirdoes..." Julie said standing a good 4 feet away from the rest of TASF.

"Hey, whoever ate the most free cookies today has to drive to the gas station and pay for gas." Helen yelled as TASF started walking towards the car

"WHAT!" Kimberly said, her mouth full of cookies as everyone else cracked up.

*END FLASHBACK*

Joan smiled as she remembered Reita's face when she finally gave him the scarf.

*MINI FLASHBACK*

"Flight 178 to Tokyo, Japan, ready for boarding." the announcement echoed throughout the terminal. Joan cringed at the sound and grabbed onto Reita's hand. Reita, having felt the emotional change in Joan, gave her hand a reassuring squeeze.

"Hey, its okay. I promise I'll be back in a few more months." Reita said as he lifted their intertwined hands and gave it a quick peck.

Joan turned around to face him and just stared, the bag in her other hand started to feel heavy. Funny, cause there was nothing in there, only a pathetic purple scarf. Yes, Joan still hadn't given Reita the gift yet. Even after they were sitting under the stars on Christmas, and as Reita played for Joan the song he wrote for her. She still didn't have the guts to give Reita the scarf, saying that the cologne was all she got him.

"Last call for Flight 178 to Tokyo, Japan." the announcement echoed throughout the terminal again, this time Reita let go of Joan's hand, but instead pulled her into a surprising hug.

"I'm gonna miss you Joan, promise me you won't fall for some other guy that can play the bass." Reita said with a laugh, but somehow Joan knew he was dead serious.
But for some reason, Joan's didn't hug him back. After a few seconds of awkward silence, Reita slowly let go of Joan and gave her another quick peck on the cheek.

"See you in a few months." He said with a sad smile, and started to walk into the terminal gates.

But before he went in, something caught around his neck, something purple. Confused, he turn around to find a blushing Joan holding the ends of the scarf around his neck.

"ReitailoveyouandI'mgonnamissyoulikecrazyandIhopeyoulikethisscarfimadeyou!" Joan yelled so quickly, she wasn't sure Reita heard her until a smile appeared on his face.

"I lov-" but before Reita could finish, Joan took the ends of the scarf and wrapped it around his mouth, and gave him a push towards the terminal gates, and started waving goodbye like mad, tears threating to overflow.

Reita pulled the scarf down and yelled. "Don't worry Joan, I promise you, I'll be back in 4 months, tops."

*END MINI FLASKBACK*

But that was a year ago. She should have know better then believe him. She should have stopped crying the day he told her he wasn't coming back, for 2 years. But she didn't. No, she cried like a fool.

*ANOTHER FLASHBACK? NOFRIGGIN'WAY!*

"OMG, THAT BITCH DID NOT JUST DO THAT!" Kimberly yelled at the tv.

TASF was sitting in the living room, watching Korean Dramas, like any other Friday night.

"Use your indoor voice, stupid." Diana said as she smacked the back of her cousin's head.

"THIS IS MY INDOOR VOICE!" Kimberly continued yelling.

"Hey shut up for a second, I think that's either the phone ringing or my eardrums ring from your insane yelling." Helen said as she walked to the apartment phone.

"Hello TASF apartment... Oh...Okay hold on let me get her." Helen said into the receiver.

"Joan, it’s for you.” Helen said as she handed the phone to Joan and mouthed 'REITA' to the rest of TASF( who all mouthed 'OHHHHHHH')

"Hello... Hey Reita." Joan said coolly.

"Well I think imma go to out for some coffee, how about you guys." Helen said casually.

"Yeah let’s go." Everyone agreed and put on their jackets and left.

~convo with Reita

"Are you okay?" Joan asked quickly with concern, dropping her cool tone after everyone left.

"Yeah I'm fine." Reita said

"Oh, okay, I was just worried, the last time you called you said and I quote ' Hey Joan, I just called too tell you everything's fine, the bands doing great. And oh, I broke my leg during one of the concerts, but its okay’." Joan said with a soft laugh.

"Yeah, I remember. You really freaked out on the phone." Reita said and Joan heard him try to hide his laughter.

"Hey, shut up, I was really worried... So what’s up? Hey they just opened a really cute couples only amusement park a few minutes away from here, I was hoping we could go together, you know, when you come back. And there's this-" Joan continued but...

"Joan wait, I have something to tell you." Reita said his voice suddenly serious.

"Really? What is it?" Joan asked, adding a nervous laugh.

"I probably won't be able to see you for awhile..."Reita said

""W-what do you mean for a while; I thought you were coming back next week.” Joan said, her voice growing frantic.

"The Band, we're..we're going on a world tour next month, so we're gonna be busy... alot... And we won't be back for a year and half." Reita continued.

"A-a year and h-half?" Joan replied dumbly, she could feel the tears starting to collect.

"I know this is alot for you but I wanna be some one great, someone you can brag to all your friends about, someone that's gonna be able to support you in the future. I mean come on, remember what your parents said when you introduced me to them... who would really want a no-good, jobless, pathetic excuse for a man like me" he said with a sad laugh.

"I do." Joan cried out and finally stopped holding the tears." Do you really think I'm that shallow? That I would really care if you were rich and had fame? What part of 'I love you' did you not get? Or did you not even believe it when I told you?" she practically yelled through the tears.

”Of course I believed you. Do you think I wanna leave you? Do you know how many nights I lay in bed wondering if some guy is sweeping you off your feet? I get so worked up that I want to get on the first plane outta Japan just to see you. But no, I have too much hope for a better future with you that I stay and work even harder, so that when I do go back to you, I know that I can give youo anything you will ever want or need. I'm doing this all for you." Reita said with such passion it scared Joan.

"All for me? Thats funny, cause I never remembered you asking me what I wanted. And if you didn't know already, I just want you, Suzuki Akira, not some High Class Rocker that I probably won't even recognize in 2 years. And don’t give me that shit that people don’t change; I am afiard to think what time apart will do to us. So if you think you going away for almost 2 years is what I really want, then go ahead and do it." Joan cried angrily into the phone before slamming down.

It only was when Joan was home alone a few days later and went online and saw an update on Reita's band's blog.

The Gazette World Tour Begins!

"So he really did it." Joan said miserably, she thought before she finally broke down.

It was an hour later before the rest of TASF came home to find their friend tossing out every Gazette CD she had in to the trash with tears streaming down her face. Then she lit a match and dropped it into the bin, they watched as the flames engulfed the plastic cases. (but we all know she didn't trash all of them ~sneaky sneaky Joan~ )

*END FLASHBACK*

She smiled sadly at the memories and looked down at the letter. She instantly noticed the penmanship was definitely Reita's. His writing was always too pretty for a guy (she would often make fun of him for that). And with shaking hands she slowly opened the letter, one of many that she always refused to read, too afraid of what would be reveled if she read it.

When she finally opened it, she was surprised it was just one piece of paper. It wasn't pages and pages of sincere apologies and neither was it just three words (‘let’s break up'). No, it was something so unexpected...

Joan,

Are you doing well?
I'm not doing well.
I miss you.

-Reita


Joan's heart clenched in pain. How could she do this to him? Put him through so much pain. Put herself through so much pain? How could they both be so stupid? She thought. Her not being able to have trust in his decisions, Him not knowing what she really wanted.

No I needed to tell him how I feel, tell him i'm sorry and reassure him, that I still loved him, Joan thought as she frantically searched her room for a pen and paper.

Reita,

I'm not doing well.
I miss you.
I sorry.
I love you.

-Joan

Joan quickly caped the pen as she folded the letter and put it in an envelope quickly sealed letter and the wrote the return address from Reita's last letter and...

Wait I need stamps, Joan thought as she ransacked the room for stamps. After half an hour, she ran out into the apartment living room.

"I need stamps!" Joan yelled

"HERE!" all of TASF shouted as they held up stamps for Joan to use.

They already anticipated this, Joan thought and she smile, they new along what would happen.

~~a week later (in Nepal)...

"Mail for Reita." The Gazette Manager yelled into the hotel room.

"What is it? More panties from crazy fan? I don't want it, you can have them." Reita thought miserably as he ran his hands over a tattered purple scarf.

"It’s from a Joan" The manager said reading the tiny writing.

"What? Here, give me it," Reita said, quickly grabbed at the letter, and opened it. As he read it, a smile appeared on his face.

"Well?" the manager asked.

"Well what? Hurry, and get the rest of the guys up. We got a show to do." Reita yelled.

~at the show...
Wait for me Joan, Reita thought as he strummed his bass, and looked into the crowd of screaming fans in Nepal, because all this is worthless if your not in my arms when I get back to you.

(A/n: oh geeeze it's like 6:10 in the morning, and i started at 1:30... what kind of ending is that ? FRIGGIN' EPIK FAIL RIGHT? Everything was so rushed! but i wanted to get it over with fast...like pulling a band-aid off.)